The Family thing...

Been thinking about my father alot lately, we're estranged in a matter of speaking, i havent talked to him in 10 years, and maybe spoken to him 4 times my whole life. No big thing there, but the key is i feel cheated, i feel like half of my family history will never be known cause he and i can't pull it together. So where does that leave me exactly? I'm not so concerned about the "father" thing per se, i have had excellent role models in my life, i just have a desire to know what kind of folk i come from, who they are, what they do etc.. I guess i'm just going to have to step to it and do it, got nothing to lose except a little hope and pride right? I don't want anything from the guy, just some time, maybe a few laughs.